xaara ([personal profile] xaara) wrote2007-03-14 09:03 pm
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Yeah, so I got nothing

Last night, I realized I needed a poem to turn in for workshop and didn't have anything in presentable order.

This was at, oh, eleven-ish.

Five hours later, I had something strange and lifted from a bunch of places and weirdly formatted and simultaneously the most abstract and the most concrete poem I've ever written.

It's in need of massive revisions, mostly for language, because I think I like most of the experimental rhythm and form and am going to keep it relatively intact.

Anyway, I'm pasting it in here because I'm terrified that I'll lose it somehow and it's about five solid hours of writing.  Yeah, I don't know what this is.

Terzetto
     to Edward “Son” House

[0.1.1  walking]

it’s just that sometimes
    when you look too hard
the horizon disappears

and that sometimes
    when you squint
all you see is the journey

[0.1.2  you know god]

tell me who’s that writing
        john the revelator
tell me who’s that writing
        john the revelator
tell me who’s that writing
        john the revelator
wrote the book of the seven seals

[0.2.1  cantata]

you ever notice how
you sing the blues to your momma
like she’s the only one
gonna understand

hear your warble and bend
and say honey, baby girl
you cry your heart out, child
forget about that man


you ever notice how
you sing the blues in the evening
like it’s the only time
that can watch you cry

hear your call to the sunset
and touch you like a lover
and bring the grace raw
clear as the sunburnt sky

you ever notice how
you sing the blues to your momma
you ever notice how
you sing the blues to your momma

cause honey
your momma’s the one
gonna understand

[1.1.1  hush]

it’s you and me, you know
    you and me and ghost towns
desert sand like forever around us

I tap drum solos on the wheel
    tip head back to the sun
hot like fever at my neck

fuckin, you say, kick the flat
    just. fuckin.
ain’t been a car by in an hour.

road wavering, yellow lines
    parallel into the shimmer
long as summer

s’okay, I say, yeah
    and c’mon, man, sit
and we watch silence

and the heat-washed road
and tomorrow

[1.1.2  devil’s music]

    the bible’s a good book to read
    consisted of thirty-nine books in the old testament
    twenty-seven in the new

    twenty-seven and thirty-nine is sixty-six
    from the genesis to the revelations


nothing in there about the southern stars
nothing in there about the night
nothing in there about the grey smoke bars
    or the sting of knuckles split and white

don’t much think moses was a blues man
don’t much think jesus played guitar
don’t much think adam liked a smooth line
    or ever tasted smoke from a cigar

not a single warning bout how want feels
not a single warning bout her thighs
not a single warning how your mind reels
    or how the world around you swells and dies

nothing in there about the well of blood
nothing in there about the fear
nothing in there about the guilty flood
    or why she never seems to want to hear

[1.2.1 kyrie]

lord have mercy
christ have mercy
lord have mercy (3x)


you say there ain’t an afterlife
but I hear different, where I come from

hear there’s salvation above
and damnation below

and maybe devils at the crossroads
who’ll trade your soul for a voice

as pure as the first rain of spring
as pure as the first burn of rye
as pure as the warm-slick blood on your hands

saw a mare foal once
like seeing an earthquake in a stall

lady bucking while I held her
pressed my face to her face

and whispered shh, baby, shh
while her eyes rolled like marbles

as wild as
wild

brought her baby to this world
kyrie

[2.1.1  up right close]

nothing more alive
    than the desert night
slither-full, coyote howling

like he’s got something to prove
    like he knows
something I can’t see

wasn’t your fault you say
    it wasn’t, it was mine too
and I try to fold my tears

back under my eyelids
    I know I say I know
door metal hot against my back

road sprawls in four directions
    your shoulder against mine
your leg to my leg, you

sing went to the crossroads
    got down on my knees

sing my insides coil-tight

yeah I say I know
    your fingers tangle
with my fingers

and we watch nightfall
    and the sunpainted desert
and tomorrow

[2.1.2  letter]

to whom it may concern:

it has been requested by interested parties that I stage a comeback.

y’all learn how to feel the blues first.  and I’ll need a new guitar.

let a young man at a mississippi crossroads borrow my last one.

morning star

[2.2.1  john]

who’s that writing
    you sing the blues to your momma
tell me who’s that writing
    you sing the blues about your man
you tell me who’s that writing
    you sing the blues to the long night
    and let them drag your soul into the promised land

now tell me who’s that writing
    don’t let me tell you not to cry, babe
who’s that writing
    don’t let me break open your heart
now tell me who’s that writing
    don’t let me tell you you’re all right, babe
    on account of how I’ve sharpened lying to an art

who’s that writing
    take me home and wash me clean, lord
who’s that writing
    take me home and wash me clean
now tell me who’s that writing
    take me home and wash me clean, lord
    and never let the road-dust brown my face again

I’ve been to mississippi
I’ve been to new orleans
I’ve been to places distant
as a lover’s dreams

I’ve seen the ocean shiver
I’ve seen the sky split wide
I’ve seen the land as gnarled
as an old man’s pride

[3.1.1  epilogue]

the sand grits still
    sun warm everywhere
hands your hands everywhere

fingers eyes and your body
    and my body
and tomorrow

[amen]

[identity profile] teaghlach.livejournal.com 2007-03-15 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
Do you realize how much stuff you post that I save? I have a folder on my computer just called "Carm." Stop filling it up. I'm running out of hard drive space.

[identity profile] xaara.livejournal.com 2007-03-15 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
lol, seriously? I can't even remember posting that much save-able stuff here. *blushes*

So, maybe I should upload that opera I've been composing and recording in my spare time, eh? :P

[identity profile] ravenclaw-devi.livejournal.com 2007-03-15 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, if that's the unrevised version, you've got nothing to fear! :)

[identity profile] xaara.livejournal.com 2007-03-15 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. We'll see what happens in another month or so when I've mastered my fear enough to take another swing at this thing.